Feeling much better

After a somewhat roller coaster ride of the last 3-4 days, the minor breakdown that ensued as a result of being overtired and overstressed, I'm feeling pretty good today, mentally and physically - strong, in a good head space, ready to bang and take on the world again, whatever it may throw at me! And lately, that could be pretty much anything. Even work wasn't too bad today. A three-hour exhibit meeting actually proved to be useful and productive. And it was one of those working sessions could have gone disastrously wrong, but it seems we're all on the same page and actually made some critical decisions for the new mineralogy exhibit. So yeah!

Had a great workout at the gym tonight - class and then a bit more pad work and then some timing sparring. And controlled timing sparring at that! Sooner or later, the concept of 'going easy' might actually get into my head. I would like to know what it is that prevents me from going light. It's not ego, that's for sure!! I regularly have arguments with myself about the sanity of doing this - fighting at my age. There's no ego in there. Not that I know of. Low self-esteem, yes. It's not a fear of being hit - that I don't mind. I can honestly say I don't know my own power, and that's the major issue. But I will learn, or die trying! Or until someone clocks me hard enough to re-think everything. But at least tonight, I actually feel ready for this upcoming fight. Lose another 10 lbs and I'll be good to go. Easy!

I've managed to lose my glasses. I know I put them in my pocket at the gym, but they are not in my jacket pocket now. They are either at the gym, or somewhere on the street between the gym and where my car was parked. This is not a good thing. I can't wear my contacts 20 hours a day.