woozy doggie!

On my couch lies a very stoned dog! I took him to the vet's this morning to have one of his molars removed and just picked him up. The tooth came out alright and should heal up very quickly, but right now he's still a bit woozy from the anesthetic. Poor thing! He looks so dopey!

2nd physio session this morning indicates that my trap muscle isn't working correctly - either a result of nerve damage or simply being damaged itself. It's not holding up the shoulder properly which is contributing to the lopsidedness of my shoulders. I decided not to take pain killers last night and regretted it today - I discovered how many different parts of my shoulder and neck are sore!! Ouch. The good thing is that my physiotherapist says that by the end of next week, provided I progress well in healing, I should be able to be back at the gym doing at least shadow boxing and lower body work. Yeah!!

I think I need a new job. The concept of "positive reinforcement" is lost at my place of work. Every time I get called into my boss's office, I feel like I'm going to catch shit. This new position is not fun for me, nor for him by the looks of it, so I think I may have to go back to research. It will take me out of harms way, make me one of the pack again (it's true - there are safety in numbers), and allow me to go back to getting work done and not stuck in meetings all the time. I thought this could work, but I don't think the environment is right. I actually think I was set up to fail in a number of ways. Maybe not consciously, not deliberately, but the environment is wrong, not supportive, too insecure. So maybe it's time for a change back to research, back to my roots, followed by a search, later on, for something different. I don't know. We'll know more after tomorrow's meeting.

I'm bored, anxious, fidgety. I'm not used to being home in the evenings, unable to go to the gym. It sucks!! The gym is like a 2nd home to me (sometimes it feels like a first home!) and not being able to train is driving me insane! Or maybe it's just being stuck at home, injured, fed up with work, eager to leave for Thailand. I'll go google Thailand and then check out Carrie's blog some more to keep me on the happy track to leaving for the warm climes of Asia.