Fell off the wagon!

I totally fell off the diet wagon today. I have consumed approximately 3000 calories, which would be fine if I was training and not trying to lose weight, but since my ideal calorie count is 2000 cal per day, 1000 calories over is falling off the wagon!! Oh well. I think it has to do with PMS and carb-craving. I ate some jelly beans at work today, so counted those in my day's total, but when I got home, I was STARVING!!! Jelly beans just don't cut it for satisfaction. But they did satisfy the sweet/carb craving at the time! I came home and proceeded to eat cereal, some crackers with cream cheese, and a couple of dried fruit bars. Yup, total carb loading!! But the last couple of days have been really hard, training wise, and, along with hormones, I believe my body was trying to tell me something - mainly that I haven't been consuming enough calories to keep it running efficiently. Tomorrow's another day. Back on the wagon tomorrow. What killed me today was the weights I did at lunch. I haven't done weights in ages, but figured it would help give me some more strength and endurance. But wow, it took alot out of me! I've trained hard the last 5 days and I needed today as a day-off (partially). I didn't train this evening, but tomorrow is back on the wagon and back in the ring!

Today also officially marked my return to research. It was a difficult decision, one I did not take lightly, but today was the day to discuss this with my boss. All was well. The boss was very supportive, so the whole 1.5 hour discussion was not as painful as I figured it was going to be. I feel very bad actually, like I failed him and my employer in changing back to research, but it was not meant to be. I don't play the political/managerial game well enough. I don't enjoy it. Time to go back to my roots and my training. I'm thankful for the support either way though. Alot of people have gone to bat for me and I'm grateful for that.