*sigh*

Just got home from an exec meeting and then a quick beer afterwards. I had a bit of a relevation this morning. I went and talked to Claude about the ups and downs of martial arts. The last couple of days have been frustrating, I haven't been happy with my performance, frustrated at being paired up with someone quite a bit less experienced than me, etc. Claude reminded me that when you're paired up with a partner, they are there for you just as much as YOU ARE THERE FOR THEM. It's true. I had forgotten that. Maybe I was bored and not getting as much of a workout as I wanted, but my partner probably got alot of out being paired with a more experienced partner. It was a bit of a lightbulb going on in my head. He's right. That's part of the game - learning from someone else, supporting someone else, and then having someone teaching you and supporting you. Not necessarily the same person for both roles. Maybe it can be, but maybe it doesn't have to be.

It was a good pause in my understanding and awareness of the big picture. Sometimes being totally internally focused is not such a good thing. On the other hand, you have to protect yourself and make sure you are happy and living up to your own standards.

Tired though. I think I'm headed to bed. 'Nother long day tomorrow. Today's executive meeting went alot better than the one last month. A few russled feathers smoothed over. We've still got some issues with the ORSF, but it's more insecurity, panic, than anything and I think we'll be ok. Just gotta bring the money in and everyone will be happy. It's hard listening to people complain, panic, when you know there are other issues one the table.