ugh

What a week. Today was the straw that broke the camel's back - I cracked, fell apart, decided to give up and just go home. It was the best thing I could have done as I wasn't getting anything done at work, was pretty close to breaking down and crying or punching someone in the head. So I came home, walked the dog, and went to the gym really early.

Once there, Kru asked me to give an intro lesson - my first one!! Well, I was supposed to give one a while back, but the person didn't show. So today was my first! Yeah! Actually, it was the best thing that could have happened to me as it gave me the opportunity to prove to myself that not everything was going to be horrible today. I think I gave a good lesson and the new student went into the Phase I class prepared. Yeah! I did a kettlebell workout and then headed home. My shoulders are aching from 3 days of kettlebells + muay thai, so today was a light day. Tomorrow it's back to running and hitting the bags and pads. I could have stayed for the Phase III class, but when I'm in this sort of mood, it is not in my best interest, or that of my partner's, to be holding pads in a class. This type of mood is conducive to solo-training, working out frustrations and burning off steam.

I had a bit of a melt down through email to Andy as well, and he actually sent me a very nice email, putting everything in perspective and offering some sage advice, as he always does. I know I can always count on him for this - a reality check and friendly support all in one.

This weekend is the Ajarn Chai workshop - all day Saturday and half the day on Sunday. Last year's workshop was fantastic! This year, it's limited to senior students and Kruu's, a small group of only 16. Although it's not taxing aerobically, by the end of a full day of doing drills, you get tired!! Saturday is going to be a long day. But the opportunity to train with Ajarn, to learn new skills and drills, is well worth it. Especially if he goes into retirement and no longer does regular workshops.